art of the day..draw..draw..n draw..

Islam is PEACE! Yo!

Under the sakura tree, praying for peace..

reminiscing the old days

Bismillah~

It's been a while since i last use this blog. well, this is not the only blog i got anyway. but, they all got their own purpose and reason. and this is the place where i would like to blabber anything, everything about! hehe..

and everything here is personal! nothing to do with others! i say what i want.. i say what i feel.. i say whatever i think.. and im always full of myself, which is why im so self centered. sometimes, its not because of my ignorance but it's because im so unique that no one understand me better than myself and of course Allah azza wajalla..

my greed, ive always wanted everything by doing nothing.. as lazy as i can be, ive always realize that im a multitask kind of person. the 'aql that Allah gave me makes me thinks profusely in such a short amount of time. to use this efficiently, i practice last minute work! ;) what an excuse.. haha..

bla..bla..bla.. actually, what i really want to say today is that i reminisce a lot of my old time lately, my school days to be specific. especially in my secondary school, SMI Hira'. ive always thought that i wont miss those time. cause there's nothing to be remembered about. nothing special. its just like a routine. you go to school..learn something.. do xm.. n get out of there.. n continue ur life till now. 

yet, i was totally wrong! i am today because of what ive been through before. as i remember myself correctly, before, im a very assobiyah person. for me, hira' is the best. no one can beat hira'. i even said to myself, i will go to University of Hira' which is not even exist till now! haha.. that's how i love so much my school. 

when i enter nilam puri foundation, there's one student who is a bit 'alim. lots of the girls says to me, owh.. i love this guy.. he reads quran very well, he is so well mannered..good looking..and  as arrogant as i can be, with my nose up, i say to her, heh, that's nothing! at my school, u can find 10 guys like him and they are better. they can even speak arabic fluently. and i will never introduce them to you..cause the only girl that suits them are hira' students themselves! fuyoooohhh...even i did not believe myself saying this! but this is the truth!! this thing really makes me smile nowadays. 

i was once a librarian during my school time. its never been something that im proud with. at times, i even forgot that i was a librarian. i only remember them when i need to submit my resume. thats all. but im once again mistaken! as a librarian, besides doing those cores with the books, i get to receive the newspaper first hand before anyone else can read. my job is to cover aurah-revealed pics with marker. what an amazing job ive done before! i dont think any other school did this. pics of people with their hair revealed i cover it with hijab. page with advertisement showing too much of a female figure, i throw it away. waaahhhh.. so proud of those time. never thought a librarian can be this angelic. hehe..

well, i think thats all for now. wait for another stories of my school many..many.. month from now. haha..

i just need to write something

if not, i think i will kill myself for being soooo stupid! by not using my mind!! why am i this bad! im such a bad..bad...girl u know. aarrrrggghhhhh...

This is why i wont promote my blog to anyone. unless it is caused by fate. i love coincidence-stuff by the way. This whole DAY, this whole WEEK, this whole MONTH, this whole YEAR!! i've done NOTHING!!. NOTHING AT ALL!! and i dont even know why am i being like this! im surrounded by good friends, good environment, a bit of good internal and external pressure and so on! what is still lack! what is still not enough!! i know im someone who dont really change because of others. it is all within myself. im the one responsible for making myself become like THIS!

The CLOCK is TICKING nana! the CLOCK IS TICKING!! its already tooooo late... tooooo late... DO SOMETHING ABOUT YOURSELF!! Please..please..please...

i know ive tried restrict myself from doing a few bad things that i used to do before. and i happened to success in doing it. its already been a few months already. however, its just not enough. i think i only manage to remove less than 20% of the bad and black things inside me. uughhhhh...it is SO HARD. Yet the SACRIFICE done is still not enough. MORE nana.. MORE... MORE.. cause you are NOT this kind of girl. you are a GOOD girl. intelligent one. Please.. dont waste yourself. dont be such a trash!

"Oo.. Allah, Who turns the hearts and the eyes, turns our hearts to be "faithful" to You"
Aamiiiiiiiinnnnn....

Diari Acheh

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

"Hati ini berbunga-bunga. Berapa lama lagikah perlu kutunggu sebelum kaki ini dapat menjejaki Acheh? Begitu rindu padanya walau belum pernah ketemu."

fuh! a poetic intro. still, it is true. within my heart. well, to be sure, InsyaAllah, next monday i'll be going to Acheh via Air Asia. bought the 2-way ticket at ONLY RM35!! Can you believe that?! hehe..

neway, ive never been on a flight before evenmore a labi-labi ( a type of van at Acheh like minibus here). eventhough the flight will be just like for 25 mins still worth it. so short right! even sarawak is more than that. haha~

we will depart from LCCT at 4pm on 6th of november, this sunday. 

will post some more soon. bye!