Art of the day

i dont like to read but i have to. please tell me.. how can you make yourself fall in love with reading.. oh Allah.. please help me.. let me feel the excitement of immersing myself with books, journals, etc.. If not, i will endanger myself mentally. Which will then lead to physical abuse of my very own self where my stomach keeps churning all day long thinking about all the work that is still not finished just because reading is not my habit!

everytime i think today is the day that i will become a new person with new, fresh thought, the next second i will doom it like saying the world is just a ball circling around itself. therefore, no need to care about everything and just let every single thing goes and flows by itself. and so the next day will be worse than today.

and i will start blaming myself for all the things that happened.. no mood.. n finish with i should jus become a rock! (sorry, this is jus a metaphor. hehe..)

anyway, i just want to read! i want to like reading! i wannna be a bookworm! i want to have enough time to read all the things that i have to read! that's all..

U CAN NEVER SATISFY OTHERS!!!

my new ring, stole it from the convocation bouquet. haha..

The title makes me seems like i'm angry rite? but, don't be afraid. cause this is just a reminder for myself. never follows what others want you to do. just do ur best in everything you wanna do. achieving what you feel is the utmost out of you is more than enough. coz there's a lot of things you have to do out there and somehow there are also a lot of people around you that can do it instead of you. let other people feel the responsibility. if not, u might be the only one who learns new things. give others a chance to grow. haha.. is this an excuse?

anyway, as i'm writing this down, my burnt head is cooling by itself. writing is the best cure at this moment. ideas keep flowing. it's a great feeling.

till next time~

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hehe.. nothin' to do.

For I am in AGONY..

As I’m leading towards my miserable life,

I keep saying to myself, do not delay, do not delay..

As the distractions fading away,

I said to myself to start anew, to start anew..

As time goes by and as all turns darker and darker, i pray for a tint of lights

As to never make me sway,

As to hold me all the way,

As to never wash me away..

After letting down all people around me,

Even after taking the oath as to never let myself be taken..

How I wish for the right to become true, for the wrong to become false

For myself is in agony..

For myself being too greedy..

For myself who is in need..

While the world spinning around,

So as my brain revolving about,

with no ends to challenge everything in front.

But with no actions seen days by days..

When will all things start to be in its place

Or go the opposite way

For i am in agony..

For i am too greedy..